I Quit! :)
Yesterday I turned in my two weeks notice.
I thought telling my boss I was quitting went pretty well. He seemed almost elated that I was leaving and seemed generally positive about the whole issue. Basically, I thought he was happy to see me go. Then he sent me an email towards the latter part of the day asking me to explain all my reasons for leaving the company.
I do have reasons. Lots of reasons. Having an opinion and being honest is not typically a difficulty of mine. But in this situation, I just want to serve my two weeks and move on in peace. I don’t want to dredge up every issue from the last year and a half, nor do I want to have some “honesty time” with my boss. “Honesty time” got me nowhere during my review, and nowhere during the whole two private meetings I’ve been allotted during my time here. Two whole meetings when my coworker gets a meeting practically bi-weekly. When it comes to me though, he doesn’t have time.
And to be honest, the fact that he e-mailed this request to me instead of asking me to my face when my desk is all of 15ft from his door I think sums up a lot of the reasons why I am leaving this company.
In talking to one of my coworkers I found out that my position was originally supposed to be an assistant position. I was hired on to be an equal to another coworker, which of course never happened. During my review the conversation went like this:
Boss: I’m not sure you are happy or that you are inspired by what you are doing
Me: I feel that I am struggling to be an equal to the coworker, which was something that was discussed at my time of hire. I was assured that my position was equal to my coworker and that I would be trained and supported in the same way. I am beginning to feel that the company should have hired an assistant instead of my position.
Boss: So you want to be an assistant?
Me: No I don’t want to be a f*cking assistant assbag I want to have the support to do my job well.
Okay I didn’t really say that but you can see that there was a bit of an issue right?
What reason will I give my boss for why I am leaving? I’m simply telling him that a 20% pay raise is calling my name.
When I left my first job out of college I spent 2.5 hours with my VP explaining in meticulous detail all the reasons why I was leaving the company (he asked me to do this, and I’d been keeping a pad of paper/list of opportunities for blackmail). Gail did the same thing a few months later. Nothing at that company has changed. The girl who took my position cried within three weeks of her start date. She has also since moved on from the company. . .in less than a year.
But there are other reasons for leaving, aside from my general discontent with my current job. I’m leaving because I’m ready for my next adventure. I’m not the same person I was when I took this position, and I feel that things are finally coming together and part of my moving forward with the next stage of my life is taking control of my career path and getting hired into a greater position. Sitting on my arse complaining about my situation instead of being proactive wouldn’t change anything.
Though I have many life goals, not one of those goals includes sitting in a cube farm wondering when I’ll see daylight again, and wondering if the light from my computer screen is giving me enough vitamin D to ward off rickets. One of my goals is to run my own successful business, but until I can define what I want to do I am completely apt to have someone else pay for my benefits and make sure a paycheck is deposited in my bank account every two weeks (and thus paying for my rent, car, liquor, and scuba, etc).
Hell, maybe during this next period in my life I’ll finally go earn that massage therapy license I’ve been ranting about for six years, earn a certificate in marketing, or write, or scrapbook (probably not), take an Asian cookery class, or teach a class on how to drunkenly wrangle tumbleweeds (I’m good at it!). Or maybe I’ll find that continuing on my path in sales and marketing is just fine and dandy with me. The point is, I was not content in my current job and decided that I could and would find something better. And I did it J